I am 37 years old.
My name is Tomasz.
In school, almost nothing interested me except nature. In high school, biology was the closest thing to me. That was where I felt that there was a language that was not a dead obligation, but an attempt to touch the mechanism of life.
I was supposed to study dietetics. I gave up when I saw that the dietetics studied by people I met was largely based on the narrative of calories, tables, formulas, and surface-level order. I felt that it did not touch the core.
As a boy, I had a weak body.
With age, I began to notice more and more clearly that different foods were not just food for me. Each of them carried a different effect. Each changed the body, thoughts, tension, clarity, and behavior in a different way.
After some foods, I felt heavy.
After others, tired.
After others, disoriented.
After others, stressed.
After others, my thoughts began to race.
After others, I became rude, harsh, unpleasant, as if the body activated a version of me that I myself did not respect.
The clearest state often appeared when I did not eat. When I fasted for a long time, I entered an exceptionally neutral state. The mind became clear. The body became quiet. That was when I felt most like myself.
This experience opened a question in me:
Why do so many foods affect a human being so differently?
The surface did not interest me. The mechanism did. The body. The reaction. The tension. The feeling. The transformation.
At the same time, I observed relationships.
I was in different relationships, close connections, and encounters. I watched women, men, their different structures, different desires, different tensions, and different ways of losing themselves.
Women, to me, are deeply different beings from men. Not worse. Not better. Different. For a long time, they have not received full space to directly express their own feeling, their own mind, their own way of seeing the world. Too often, they had to exist through culture, expectations, appearance, adaptation, role, attractiveness, acceptance.
Men were also given a heavy path.
Work.
Be ambitious.
Start a family.
Earn.
Prove yourself.
Endure.
Do not feel too much.
Do not stop.
It burned me out.
When the things that held and disciplined me began to fall apart, I entered travel.
It was not only about sightseeing. I was not looking for attractions, photographs, or cultural checklists. I was looking for a space that felt more energetically supportive than Poland. A place where the atmosphere itself, nature, people, rhythm, climate, and way of life would be less based on the cult of work, money, status, and constant tension.
I found such places.
For now, I do not want to officially announce them yet. Two or three years have passed. I need current certainty that what I felt then is still alive.
Travel showed me one thing very clearly:
Places in the world differ not only by landscape. They differ by their influence on the body, regeneration, the type of thoughts that arise, emotional tone, softness, tension, and the way a person breathes.
One place can tighten.
Another can loosen.
One can speed up thoughts.
Another can clear them.
One can bring irritation.
Another can restore gentleness.
Finding the most supportive places serves one purpose: to deepen what a human being truly feels and carries within.
Attitude and personal understanding matter. But there are also external conditions that cannot be ignored. Place, food, rhythm, people, air, water, nature, climate — all of this participates in how a person receives themselves.
For star children, many things that society considers “unimportant” carry great value.
Silence.
Light.
The scent of a place.
Water.
Breath.
The presence of nature.
The gentleness of a voice.
The absence of pressure.
The ability to be without proving.
And the reverse is also true: many things society considers “important” may feel empty to them.
Status.
Prestige.
Competition.
Position.
Displays of strength.
Proving one’s value.
Living by someone else’s measure.
Are the matters presented here important for everyone?
Yes — if the main need is love, co-creation, softness, lightness, peace, and harmony.
No — if the main need is battle, dominance, competition, advantage, and control.
Each human being decides what matters most to them.
This page is not here to force anyone.
This page is here to name a space that many people have never been able to name.